Don’t bang it so hard

Published December 6, 2012 by Sandee


I shaved my head again.  But when listening to death metal sometimes, I think, gee, it’d be nice to have some damn hair.  I had head-banging hair a few years ago, albeit not the long, straight kind – I like saying ‘albeit’ — hehehe. The last time I went to a concert was in ’09.  I loved seeing head bangers whipping their hair around.  I got into it, and two days later – whip-lash.  I couldn’t believe it – such pain from that shit.

The cool thing about banging my head at the concert was that my hair was such that I didn’t need to keep fixing it.  It was relaxed and wavy.  There’s no affectation to banging my head because I’m possessed, I’m not doing it, the music is.

Sometimes when I’m playing chess or blogging on my computer and a song I love comes on that impels me to move around like a maniac, I have to make sure that I don’t hit my head on the edge of my desk.  It would be embarrassing to die this way or even to knock myself out.  I’m intense when I like a piece of music.  Don’t’ get me to standing up thrashing around.  It’s damn dangerous.

I’m cool with being near bald now though.  It works the same for head-banging only I don’t get hair in the eyes, nose or mouth.  While it’s sexy to have hair doing it, I never want to become a cliché.  When I went to the Obituary concert, I refused to wear all black and black eye-liner, etc.  My friend didn’t either, thank goodness.  I do like dressing that way once in a while, but subtly.  I was death metal even before I knew what it was, so I don’t have to try.  I’m born this way.  It was inevitable that I would gravitate to it.  This cute guy I knew called me ‘Rock ‘n Roll’.  I’ve also been called Tasmanian devil and a human doing (as opposed to being).  So you can see why this kind of music would appeal to me – it’s compatible to my inner-vibration and to my tendency to muse delicately on death and all of its aspects and manifestations – what the fuck did I just say?!

I realize after all these years that I should probably not try too hard to do anything because I tend to have too much concentrated energy, which causes imbalance.  If I tried to be rock ‘n roll it might not work.  Rock ‘n roll, hard rock and heavy metal led me to hardcore, and I’m still in allegiance to it.

So what I want to do generally is ride the wave.  But sometimes old habits emerge and I thrash at the waves, pulling myself under, as the common metaphor goes.  Here’s another one:  As long as I don’t bang my head too hard I won’t get whip-lash.

26 comments on “Don’t bang it so hard

  • I hear ya! I cut my hair short again after several years of long when I was dancing around the living room to “So Lonely” by the Police (it inspires sort of a reggae styled whole-body head bang). My hair, even in a ponytail, kept flying in my face. So I said, “screw it” and went short again. I haven’t looked back since.

  • it’s compatible to my inner-vibration — rock on Sandee! Hi-five on the short hair..
    If you were to die while head bopping— who cares? You were doing what you love..happy and free spirited

  • Again and again – falling off my chair – as Your posts come in – THE TITLES – Sandee ……
    You are wonderful with the titles 🙂 ……..
    I know you like CAKE – wait I KNOW you LOVE cake 🙂

    xo C
    do u like Cake – The band ?
    because i am kinda getting into them again,,,,,,,,,
    here is one for You ……:)

    🙂 🙂

    • Thanks for the cake — you’re too sweet!

      And yes I do know this group. I love the Going the Distance video especially, the song is brilliant, the video briliianter! And with a name like Cake, I should be listening to them more often I think.

      I hope you have a wonderful weekend Cat! Thanks again… xoxo

      P.S. I love it “I want a girl with a short skirt and a loooooooooooooooooong…jacket!” Yeee haaaa! Thanks for reminding me of this group…

  • I’ve bneen missing you! Are you bald bald? Really like an egg bald?


    PS: I have to start by asking for a Kindle for Christmas. Before asking for your book to read on the Kindle. Is it in paper somewhere? I’m really quite old-fashioned! 😉

    • Hi Dawn! I’m not completely bald, I’ve cut it down low enough where you can see my scalp — but I did it two weeks ago so now I need a hair cut — hahaha! I’m going to keep it this way for a while.

      Thanks so much for wanting to read my book. If you click on the the pink book on my side-bar it will lead you to the paperback version on Amazon.

      I was just thinking about how good your writing is the other day. Really intelligent and poetic. The kind of stuff that makes me think. If you ever write a book, I’m there!

  • whoa there trigger!!!! not like that – you naughty thinker – i mean if i looked in the mirror and yours was the face staring back (or are you grinning) at me – to think i had to ‘xplain this

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