Published February 26, 2013 by Sandee

Me and Me

For the drama queen in me.  It’s very cathartic.

Peter Steele’s lyrics to Inner Conflict:

Nothing can stop the pain

and nothing can stop the pain

suffering from anxiety

it seems like an eternity

Somebody, somebody kill me

Somebody put me out of my misery

Inner Conflict

Inner Conflict

The pain it only gets worse

and the pain it only gets worse

give up ’cause there is no hope

life is hell when you can’t cope

Somebody, somebody kill me

Somebody put me out of my misery

(My favorite part of the song)

I think I’m losing my fucking mind

Large two inch maggots decorate my vomit

infected eyes oozing pus

acknowledge the stench of human excrement

swamps of mucus prevalent

every hole in my body drips blood

every hole in my body drips blood

every hole in my body drips blood

Hate is fear

I rip at my face in the mirror

death approaching

expiration growing nearer

I’m rotting inside

I’m disgusted with myself

I’m in hell

61 comments on “Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!

    • Yay! I love when I can share something out of bounds like this and people can relate — I put it in here impulsively without really thinking about feedback. As you mention, It is an accompaniment at times to urban living at times.

      I actually have spoken to the artist on the phone and we have a lot of similarities and were the same age, etc., only he was white and 6’6″ and lived in Brooklyn. He was accessible at that time since he was underground. Unfortunately the hard living metal life took its toll on him and he passed away a couple of years ago. I still had my heart set on meeting him — I felt like he was my soul mate, but doesn’t everybody say that about rock stars, singers, etc. So pathetic.

  • Sandee, are you having a bad day, my friend?? I think we all feel this way, especially during uncertain times and those scripts that play in our head — the negative ones — for this or that reason have to be faced head on. I just tell mine — shut up, you are not ruling me today.

    • I know right?! Posting this song would probably indicate that I’m having a bad day. I had a fleeting moment of drama, I’ll just say euphemistically — haha! But generally, I’m so twisted that I listen to these songs no matter how I am feeling.

      Really the day’s not so bad. I was told that I could start my day over at any time. Maybe I’ll just do that.

    • I loved this video and the song — I like when the kids are in the room and the ‘singer’ screams with his hands up to his head — I so relate to that gesture! Thanks for forwarding. I’m guessing they’re German? Yeah, as I’m listening I’m thinking even this is softer than what I listen to in this broad genre — hahahaha! The kids were cute as hell.

  • Ah Peter Steele, how I loved him. even before I saw his spread in the 94 (or was it 95) Playgirl. His Type O Negative stuff was always more my style.

    • Yay! So you know who he is, or was — sad he passed away. I think three years ago. I do have a copy of that Playgirl magazine, well preserved 😉 I became familiar with him with this album above. I’m cautious about some of these underground groups — the song on the album, Jesus Hitler — I called the station I first heard it on to ask if this meant they were nazis or white supremacists, and the man told me that he himself, was Jewish. Plus, one of the members of the band was Jewish. So I went on ahead and bought it. That song, plus the song Race War are meant to be absurdist or satires. I actually spoke to him on the phone and he told me this. I really do love both of those songs. I have his Type-0-Negative albums too. I’ve seen him in concert a couple of times.

      • Yeah, his sense of humor and his wit was very very dark. But THAT is why I loved him. Saw Type O in concert a few times over the years. The last time, it was the Halloween before he died.

        I always LOVED Boo-ing them and heckling when prompted during their set…

        Kudos to you for having a copy of that Play Girl… I don’t know what happened to the one me and a girlfriend bought….

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