From my inner ear, in the recesses there and in the brain, you settle and speak to me and I shake my head to feel the fleshing out of this voice that has to do with who I am, and what I want more than anything I can grab, hold, and keep so solidly in a static notion that can only be captured in a moment of creative expression.
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Your dad looks like such an awesome guy. That smile on his face. I want to give him a hug. Beautiful.
Thanks Mme. Weebles. He was awesome. He was an artist — you may have seen my writing on this. I tried to be just like him for a period. I wore his dungaree jacket that he embroidered and this knitted hat that he wore that somebody made for him. I admired him. I got to tell him that he was my role model before he died. I love this picture. It was taken in the early seventies. He looks like a scruffy renegade in it.
I have seen your writing on him, and I can see why you’d want to be like him. His personality just comes through so clearly in this photo, he seems so intensely likeable.
Aw, thank you. He was a pretty gregarious guy.
Glad you got to tell him that. That’s important
It also makes me think of things I should say to people who are still alive.
This is true! I can’t tell my mother or my father anything but I can certainly call grandma, my sister and my aunt! 🙂
Letting the people you love hear the good thoughts you’re thinking about them can be so fulfilling. When I can remember, I try to do it with not only family but friends as well.
Yep! Me too.
I love this. The picture speaks volumes. Thanks for sharing that, Sandee.
Thanks Grippy. This is one of my favorite pictures of him. He looks so wild in it.
I can just see he’s a good soul. I’m glad you were blessed with such a wonderful father for a role model. I’m sure he’s so proud of the woman you’ve become : )
He was a really good soul — very sensitive as well. I actually did hear him in my inner ear saying simply, “Sandee.” This is while he was alive. He died of heart failure in 2003. I haven’t heard him since he died — strange.
OMG! He’s a beautiful man! What a wonderful face. And the familiar hair and beard. Dean had a beard since the seventies until he died. Your dad’s smile. oh, my. He is a loveable man … just looking at him, you know. Lucky child you are! 🙂
Thanks George for saying these nice things. Your husband must have had a cool look too. I do consider myself lucky to have had him in my life.
I can see you in his face.
Oh yeah — I used to look even more like him when I was younger. I see it a lot in this picture too.
Beautiful soul, your Father.
Indeed he did have a beautiful soul — thanks Lynne!
That’s wonderful Sandee.
Thanks Jessica!
Thanks for sharing such a beautiful moment in your heart. But those we love light it up that way, don’t they? You don’t need to wear his jacket (though its lovely to do so) because you’ll find that on some level you are exactly like him. Have a lovely weekend. Yaz
What a sweet thing to say YR! I really appreciate it. You’re right about not having to wear the jacket.
You have a great weekend too and thanks for stopping by!
I love this so much! Great smile. It’s infectious.
I’m glad you appreciate it Fish! My father was also very funny. There’s another picture I thought of putting in here where his eyes are twinkling — like they’re laughing.
thanks for sharing this Sandee. I hadn’t read anything about your dad, but I am sure he must have been a wonderful man to have had a sweet daughter like you 😉
Aw thanks Carla! I appreciate you saying that! I don’t know what’s wrong with my comments — for some strange reason I had to approve this comment which is so stupid since I never had to before. I just changed my email address in my gravatar image and info and it threw everything off. 😦
I want you to know that I look forward to your every post. You are a very “real” person,if you understand what I am trying to say. You are able to laugh and be comfortable being yourself, and still able to show your vulnerable side too. The only reason that I haven’t bought your book is that I don’t own a kindle. It is beyond my price range. But I am sure it is a great read!
Your kind words mean more to me than you buying my book Carla. Thank you so much for following and reading and commenting — I look forward to the exchanges we have in the comments section. I feel a real connection and I appreciate it.
Beautiful post, Ms. B. And the pic shows a lot of joy in your Dad’s heart.
Thanks Mike! I like this particular picture because it is so spirited. He’s got some straight-laced ones but this is one of my favorites.
Sandee, I can see where you got your beautiful soul-reaching smile. Your Dad’s got it and he looks like a sweet wonderful soul — like you! When did you write about him? Was it a post? Must have been before you and I “met.” I’d love to read. Thanks for sharing this.
Aw Brigitte thanks so much! That’s really sweet and I appreciate it. Thanks so much for wanting to read it. I’m so glad we’re bloggy buddies as SSG says. I’ve probably written about him on more than this occasion but here’s the post that I wrote around father’s day:
https://1800ukillme.wordpress.com/2012/06/19/you-think-your-fathers-superman/
Your dad looks like a hell of a guy. I never knew my dad (not his fault)–I understand he was a hell of a guy, too. Lovely post.
Thanks Smaktakula! I’m glad you appreciated it.
infectious is a great word to describe this.. I saw his photo and instant smile. Thanks for sharing a piece of your heart
Your welcome UBS! He is definitely in my heart. Thanks for the kind words.
Such an open face, your Dad. Love this post.
Thanks so much Elena!
Awww, awesome post Sandee! Your dad look so handsome and happy. 🙂
Thanks Shauna!