I read an interview featuring Glen Benton of Deicide on the MetalSucks blog. I’ve been a death metal fan for a long time, but I’m still a little superstitious about groups who wear upside down crosses (There is a group called Upside Down Cross that I really like.), and claim to be satanists and stuff like that. Glen Benton had an upside down cross burned into his forehead. I had one of Deicide’s albums, went through a phase where I thought the energy was too dark and stopped listening to it. I had also stopped listening to my Morbid Angel album because of the anti-Christ thing. And I’m not religious in the least, though I am spiritual, which I hate to say because it’s a common thing to say. I said that these groups gave me the heebie jeebies because of superstition about the dark energy, but really, I just wondered about people who were religious in this upside down kind of way, and if they really espoused evil. If so, I don’t think that’s very nice – this is the bottom line I suppose, about my shying away from them.
I have death metal programmed on my internet radio station and they play Deicide’s Confessional Rape. The song rejuvenates the shit out of me. It makes me imagine myself riding a black horse through the forest at a furious speed, while chopping off the heads of my enemies with a scythe. OMG am I espousing evil!? The song has nothing to do with this kind of imagery however. I wonder if I’m too old for this shit. I went to an Obituary concert two years ago and had a stiff neck for two days from banging my head.